Everyone needs a little reminder, up lifter, or just a good reminder of how our thoughts of innocence still resonate truth. Just because we didn't know everything those years ago, doesn't mean we didn't have some knowledge behind what we were saying. So here are some words of inspiration of my high school days. Written by myself, friends, and famous people all kept secretly in a journal which I found hiding under my bed while packing up to move onto the next chapter of my life. Enjoy...
"The Euphoria of the moments is only exceeded by that of the next adventure. The addiction to the dream like high that I, have no rehab will ever care. She, my addiction, my muse, is my inspiration, songs of beauty flow from just one look. Oh Romeo Oh Romeo where art though? Who cares, when Juliet is around" - A dear friend
" You don't need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows" - Bob Dylan
"I didn't speak my heart with her because I was scared of the response, but all it did was postpone the inevitable. Think about this thought" - Another dear friend
When You're out there looking for me
Excuse me Mr. Police Man? I'd like to place a report about a missing person. Physical features you need? Blue-green eyes. Curly brown hair. Two inches above Five foot. Normally wears her glasses. Does she look like me you ask? Of course- because it is me. I can't seem to find myself you see. I'm lost among the world and don't know where to start. I can barely recognize myself- which may make things difficult.
My best friend left me after I asked for her friendship. She took a part of me. I think it's because I fell in love to early and she is mad. My parents and I don't speak the same language- but I heard that's common these days. Some kids are lucky though and were born bilingual. Sadly I was not- but neither were my mom or dad.
If you want my medical records I suggest you take tomorrow off. We could talk over coffee and doughnuts?
When you're out there looking for me, look for self-conciousness, stubborn, and a touch of selfishness. Last I heard they control my life. I may be fighting back tears or wearing a true fake smile ( I've been practicing so watch out) from the stress and pressures that drag me down. They are my ball and chain, but the key to unlock them has been thrown out.
When you're out there looking for me and you somehow locate my body- don't bring me home. Instead take me somewhere that will bring me back to life. A room full of music or the home of my true love. Either one will do. Let me be held, let me play sweet melodies, let me dance to the graceful beats which makes ones body flow in a rhythmic art.
Take me to laughter and warm genuine smiles. Surround me with friends and those who care enough to ask how I'm feeling. Take me to the woods with a soft flowing stream. I want to feel the warm breezes embrace my skin.
With vast blue skies above and an endless path ahead, allow me to lose myself- but this time in wonder. This time in joy. Let the negatives get crushed by the billowing trees and may the birds sing nothing but happiness.
When you're out there looking for me and you do stumble across my path- don't let me go astray. tell me i'm wanted, tell me i'm needed but than tell me no more.
No more than a simple "good day madame" because once I have found myself amongst the fields of daisies, I do not want to return to the fields of thorns
- A short poem/story written by me during a time when a time when I was unsure of who it was I should be, whether it was for myself or others.
"It's possible a pencil points, but does a lemon drop? Does coffee break or chocolate kiss? Or will soda pop? I share my milk with a drinking straw and my meals with chewing gum and should I see my pocket change, I'll hear my kettle drum....."
- Excerpt from "I wave good-bye when butter flies" by Jack Pruletsky
"I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me; and I've expected way less then what I deserve. But I've learned from my bad choices, and even though there are some things I can never get back and People who will never say sorry. I know better next time and won't settle for anything less then what I deserve" - Anonymous
I hope these words resonate feelings within you; whether good bad, reminders of the past or hope for the future. They were a good reminder of who I was and what I was feeling so few years ago. It's amazing how you can be feeling the same thing at one point in your life and when that same feeling creeps up on you years later you don't treat it the same. It was nice reminding myself how things were handled because I know I'm a stronger person now and will not treat this feeling as I did before.
This is real, so take a chance and don't ever look back
